Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Why?

Why does life have to be this hard? One minute I am happy as can be then I find something that reminds me of him. I don't want to be with him, but I can't seem to get over him. Sleep is getting harder the days are getting longer. Then my off days hit and it is loneliness. I try to stay busy and to keep strong for Abby, but when I am alone all I can do is think and that brings tears abd I don't want to cry anymore. We are better off aapart, but I miss him. He has been calling to check on Abby more, but we always argue when we talk. I ask God everyday to make it stop hurting, but I guess the answer is no.

Plus on top of everything else the lasy that was in the nursing home I used to work at passed away yesterday so I've lost her to.

5 comments:

Liberated Momma said...

I am sorry you are hurting, there is no magic words to make it better. With time, it will get easier.

In your heart you know you are doing what is best for Abby. No matter how much it hurts. Just remember to be the best Mom and Dad you can be and not say things in front of her. No matter what he will always be her Daddy.

You guys will be fine and one day you will find the man of your dreams and he will be good to you and her.

Simply Jen said...

Life is hard to teach us. God has plans for us and in order for us to fulfill those plans, we have to learn the lessons of life. Keep your head up, it will get easier. A really big part of your life has changed. Just remember, kids know when their parents are upset. So, when you and Frank fought all of the time, Abby knew and it upsets her. Just keep remembering that she is much better off being with just one parent who is happy than two who are unhappy and fighting. I hope this helps.

Cat said...

Each day is a little easier. Give yourself time to grieve and put your best foot foward. Its sucks, but as the sign hanging above the exam table in my old ob/gyn's offrice says, "and this too shall pass." Im sorry your going through this, but at least you have your little one to keep you moving forward.

Master of My Own Small Universe said...

22 and going through a divorce? Been there, done that... have the t-shirt.

Don't worry, things will get better. In time, you'll meet someone new and then they too will break your heart. And so you start all over again...

Three great things God gave us: faith, hope, and love. Never lose your grip on those and everything else eventually falls into place.

Remember, things happen for a reason.

psycho_aide said...

now i know why you aren't in the greeting card business leroy!