Only time will tell.....

Well Frank has to go take a drug test before the 13th and then he will leave out on the 17th for 5 days of training. I know I always make the joke I want to get rid of him for weeks at a time, but I am going to miss him. I know it will get us more money and time apart, but I am worried. All these what if's keep going through my head. What if something happens and I need him? What if he can't get off for Christmas what will abby and I do? What about our anniversary? On the other hand there is the fact we will be able to afford our own place. Plus be able to pay off my truck sooner. Not to mention I can be able to go back to college.

"I'll take prison for 200, Alex"

For those of you that have no clue what that is from you have not seen the funniest movie Madea's family reunion. I haven't laughed that hard in awhile and I saw it in theaters. I will never think of grits the same again. If you haven't seen it watch it you will laugh your ass off.

Me thinking on little sleep.

You ever wonder what if. I know everyone does, but here lately I have been thinking it alott. Mainly What would have happened if I would have just went to the Art institute of Houston instead of staying in Tarkington. It's like a chain of events. If I wouldn't have dated Odie (anyone comment and I WILL kick your butt) then I wouldn't have been in Cleveland. If Odie wouldn't have cheated on me with Amy then I wouldn't have dated Larry (again do NOT go there).If I wouldn't have dated Larry he wouldn't have blew up the engine in my neon. If he wouldn't have blew up the engine in my neon I wouldn't have gotten my Ford (well I guess something good to come of it). If I wouldn't have gotten my truck I wouldn't have had to pay a truck note. If I wouldn't have had to pay a truck note then I wouldn't have worked at porter Wal-Mart. If I wouldn't have worked at Porter Wal-mart then I wouldn't have met Frank. If I wouldn't have met Frank I wouldn't have cared about the fire department. If I wouldn't have cared about the fire department then I wouldn't have met Leroy and all my friends there. Now then did I confuse you?

The morning after

Well let's see where do I begin. The only word to decribe last night is cold. I have never thought i would ever see the day my husband didn't want anything to do with me. He said a little bit, but that was it. I stayed up most of the night trying to sleep, but nothing worked. Thinking about when I get called to the office today b/c of this shit effecting my job. I didn't get to bed until 1:00 am i don't know when I feel asleep. The only thing that has made me laugh in the past 12 hours is Rodney Carrington. I woke up at 6 this morning. I haven't seen 6am since I pulled the double. I am tired and I wanna be far away from everyone and everything. Oh and for the record I have been trying to help and protect Leroy from this shit. Sometimes being a good friend is leaning when to shut up!

Just when things start going good.........

......Everything goes bad.

Today was a great day NOT. In case you haven't figured it out I was being sarcastic on my last post. So for all of you that have helped make my day a living hell I hope you get diarrhea and there is no toilet paper and you have to wait to use the pot.

For those of you who would like to hear about what all happened, here is my day in a nutshell. I got awaken at 3:00 am and couldn't go back to sleep until 4:30. Then Abby wakes up wanting to sleep on my chest around 7 preventing me from more sleep. Then Frank comes home for lunch at 10:00. I have to get a shower and get dressed for work. I go into Porter to pay a loan and realize I am low on gas. I have to pull into a gas station where the cashier was flippin stupid and put the money on the wrong pump, I wasn't happy. I finally get to Splendora to get something to eat at Jack in the box. Abby and I munch on French fries while I argue with Frank on the phone about him not putting gas in the truck. Out of kindness I get him a Dr Pepper from sonic and end up wearing most of it. I get to work only to find that I am on the same damn halls I have been on. Well I get everyone set when I get a text from Frank saying we needed to talk. He tells me that he read a certain blog and wants to know why I lied to him. I ask him what he is talking about and he reads to me the biggest crock of shit I have ever heard in my life. I was fuming at this point. I hang up and call Leroy asking him if he was spreading this lie. Well that didn't go over to well. As I am talking to him I get called to the nurses station. I took care of my peeps and went to the store for cigarettes. During this time I was so mad I couldn't see straight. After we get everything almost smoothed over my cell rings I won't go into detail of what went through my mind when I read the name on my caller id, but just be glad I did not answer b/c your ears would still be ringing. Then I check my voicemail there was an apologize on there saying that it was all a misunderstanding (hmmmmmmm, but when Leroy, Cas or I said this it was made out as a lie?). Oh and I forgot to mention during all this Frank and I decided to split up (we are ok now). Long story short I now have received my first write up EVER b/c I got into it with a co-worker due to him saying something smartassy at the wrong time. So in short thank you those of you who did this for helping me receive this great honor.

Wow

I was just informed that I am going thru a divorce. Wow I am glad I found out. Imagine my surprise when I found this out. You know there is something that has been bugging me about all of this, Leroy I have got to know, was I any good? I really want to know this answer b/c I don't have any clue to if u were. Now I got to go I am tired after going to the mall and getting divorced all in one day.

My relaxing day!!!!!

Today was actually fun I went to the mall with my little buddy. I went hunting a birthday presents for a dear friend. I was drug into more shoestores today than i have ever been into my whole life. Anyone who knows me knows I like flipflops or barefeet.

We found the prefect gifts for him. We bought a set of 4 guiness glasses and a stationary guiness bottleopener. I say this only b/c he has gotten them already.

I also ordered a book from barnes and noble recommened by him. I used to hate going to the mall, but it was fun today.

Abby got a new bear from build a bear workshop. It's a firefighter one she calls DADA OHHHHHH. She kept calling this as we walked around with it. It plays music and all.

Then we left there and went to the firestation. Where we celebrated Albert's 50 birthday and went over pump ops.

I am finally home to relax.

Oh and while I am thinking of this I now feel like a total blonde not clicking to which David Banner Leroy was talking about.

My 2 cents

You know I have had enough of these bullshit lies. I think it is about time someone actually hears the damn truth. I have NEVER cheated on my husband and if you believe I have then that is your own stupidity. I have kept my mouth shut for too long. I know who started this stupid rumor and frankly you need to get a life. I now know who my friends are and who are the shit starters. So for those of you that love to start mess watch out b/c it will come back to bite your ass. Just remember when all your friends don't want anything to do with you, you caused it yourself.

Gratitude

It is amazing how a little appreciation can effect you. I do the same thing day in day out 4 days on 2 off. I have had to work the same halls all 4 days this time when I asked the nurse why she replied, "because momma is on that hall and you are the best." This coming from a nurse that is a royal bitch to everyone. Then to top my night off I was told that my hall was in excellent shape by my relief. I have never been happier with my work.

My visit to the doctor.

I just relized I haven't said what was wrong with me the other day when I kept getting dizzy. Well turns out it is a tension headache due to stress. I was precribed some muscle relaxer/asprin/caf. combo pill. It is friggin' huge. It was funny when I first time I took one it was a whole one thinking I could handle it it does say take 1 every 6 hours as needed for headaches. Never again! I was laughing a stupid stuff and was zoned out most of the day. One of my coworkers asked me to share what I was on. I don't know what is in it, but I was tore up. I have a special ringtone for one of my friends and when they called I thought I was hearing voices (you know you have been around the fire department too long when this happens). I called them back laughing my ass off about it. I now only take 1/2 of one for my headaches (the voices are gone). Well got to go I am hungry. Hope I made you laugh at least. Kiss kiss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stupid people

Ever hear of the saying "don't believe everything you read and only some of what you hear"? It is a very good phrase now if only some of the people in this world would learn and live by it. Rumors can cause alott of pain for alott of people, but why should anyone ever give a damn about someone other than themselves. Instead they start more shit and frankly I am tired of dealing with stupid ass people who don't know what the fuck they are talking about. You know damn well who you are and if you have nothing better to do than start rumors about others than get a damn life of your own and stop trying to mess with those of us who do. Oh and while you are at it remember the saying about those who lives in glass houses.

My lovely friggin' day.

I swear if I would have had my gun today half the population would be gone. I have had a strange headache, dizziness, blurred vision and I have been dropping things constantly. I dropped my cigarette, coffee, milk and a big pitcher of water (housekeeping was ready to kill me). I am going to the clinic tomorrow so hopefully I will know something other than it might be nerves, stress, pregnancy or hormonal imbalance. If they tell me to lay off caffeine it ain't happening. I am bitchy enough as it is I don't need lack of caffeine added to it. It never fells if you are having a bad day everyone knows just how to make it worse. I have annoying coworkers bugging me with stupid shit, a nurse that won't get off my back and a resident passed on today too (she was 101 years old). So my day was about as fun as a root canal without anesthesia.

Define normal...

You always hear people say "you're driving me crazy" as if they aren't already. In my personal opinion everyone is crazy to some extent. I mean look at these people who go and get unmentionable parts of their bodies pierced or tattooed or look at the people who go thru excruciating pain just to remove hair. I have done my brows myself, but I went and had them done the other day and that shit hurts. I don't even want to think of bikini waxing. Also why is it if you carry on a conversation with yourself when you are a child it's imagination, but when you are an adult it's crazy? When is the turning point of childhood and adulthood? I mean look at some of the so call ART that sells for millions I have seen preschoolers do the same thing and it just gets hung on the fridge. Tell me that is normal.

The longest thirty minutes of my life.

Yesterday morning was hell on earth for me. I wake up way before I wanted to so I could take Frank to work. I get home and check my email like I do everyday. Abby is wanting me to hold her so she can slap the keyboard. I get done and put her down. I walk out of the room for a minute and I hear her cry it sounded a little funny then I hear a muffled cough (not her usual fake one). I walk in there to find her holding a tube in her hand with something white all in her mouth. I grab the tube to see what she found and it's super glue. I scream grab her up and grab my cell to call Frank (he didn't answer). So I grab the house phone to call 911 screaming about my 14 month old just swallowed super glue. I give them my name and address and that if they tone first responders that it's Frank's daughter. Then I remember TINA. I grab my cell again while on the house phone with diapatch and call constantly yelling "TINA TINA TINA". No answer dispatch tones 523 the first responders. My cell rings with Tina on there telling me she was on her way. I call Frank again he answers this time, I ask if he heard the tone before he could reply I yelled "It's Abby you asshole." I know it was of me evil but I was panicked and men are never around when you need them. It seemed like forever it was only like a few minutes. I will be honest 51 has never looked so beautiful to me. I grabbed Abby and ran outside to let Tina get her luckily I had got most of it out of her mouth. Theresa pulled up a minute later, then Evert, and then the ambulance with Murphy. We took her to the hospital via ambulance. I called Frank on the way there telling him we are on our way. Abby constantly smiling at Murphy (she's a flirt). We get there and they said she'd be ok. When we got out of the ER Abby was yelling for Tera (my mom's Boston terrier). I was still in panic mode and all she could think of was that dog. From the time it happened to the time I got to the ER was only 30 minutes tell me that ain't a kick ass responce time. She is much better today, she is helping me type this so if there are typos it ain't easy to do this while holding her.