Well two of my closest friends got married tonight. I wish them the best of luck in their life together. I cried my eyes out at the wedding b/c I was so happy for them, but at the same time was so depressed. We went to the court house today. I get to keep Abby, but he gets her every other weekend. I should be happy, but I am not. I keep praying for a miracle. I guess the answer is no. If this is what we wanted and everything then i should be doing cartwheels, but instead I am at home crying my eyes out. I love him more than anything in this world and always will.