Why?

Why does life have to be this hard? One minute I am happy as can be then I find something that reminds me of him. I don't want to be with him, but I can't seem to get over him. Sleep is getting harder the days are getting longer. Then my off days hit and it is loneliness. I try to stay busy and to keep strong for Abby, but when I am alone all I can do is think and that brings tears abd I don't want to cry anymore. We are better off aapart, but I miss him. He has been calling to check on Abby more, but we always argue when we talk. I ask God everyday to make it stop hurting, but I guess the answer is no.

Plus on top of everything else the lasy that was in the nursing home I used to work at passed away yesterday so I've lost her to.